Without The Weight

Because losing my myelin wasn't enough

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Weekly Weigh In

Friday, July 25th: 273.4
Pounds lost this week: .8
Total Pounds lost: 84

I’ll take it! I know I’ve lost a lot of weight in the last couple weeks and to continue to see the scale go down feels amazing! I still don’t “feel good” from the way I’m eating but I heard that can take a couple of months. I can’t wait for that!

BUT people are starting to notice. Multiple random people have told me that I look thinner, I just wish I could see it too!

Well, I can see it in other ways. Like in my size 18 jeans that I could barely squeeze into before that are now pretty loose in the legs. That is nothing more than mind-blowing.

As long as the scale continues to decline, I’m happy!

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Weekly Weigh In

Friday, July 18th: 274.2
Pounds lost this week: 3
Total Pounds lost: 83.2

Wow! I’m so excited!

I can only hope this diet is doing as much for the MS as it is for the weight loss! I’m just trying not to put too much pressure on myself for weight loss. It will come.

Beyond that, I’m living on Miami Beach for the summer and I can’t seem to get off the beach. Sundown is around 8:30 each night so if I go down after 6, theres barely any humidity. I’ve been taking walks along the beach and I’ve even been going swimming in the ocean! I want this to be the summer of healing and recovery. So far, things are going even better than planned!

No more weekly goals. I need space to heal and if the weight continues to come off, I’ll appreciate every pound.

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The Diet

Ok, so here’s the low down. The South Beach Diet is a great diet. I really enjoyed it, I lost a lot of weight on it, but it just wasn’t working for my MS. Too much dairy and too much meat.

So I’m going a new route. This diet is for my MS. I’m tired of not feeling well and I’m done with relapses.

The last two weeks I’ve been following an organic Pescatarian diet that is very strict on saturated fats. I’m on myfitnesspal if you want to check out some of my meals. No soda or juice. And a green smoothie everyday in the morning with chia seeds and ground flaxseed.

So far my weight has embraced the diet changes. I hope that continues.

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Weekly Weigh In

That’s right everyone, it’s a weekly weigh in! Can I even call it that if I don’t always post every week? Ah, well, it’s my blog, so here we go…

I’m a month and a half into my relapse and for the last week and a half I’ve been following a strict organic pescatarian diet that’s very low in saturated fat (less than 15 grams a day).

I had gained a miserable 9 pounds between not being able to walk well (let alone exercise), not being able to use my hand, and being on the steroids.

That brought me to be 291.6 pounds. It was pretty devastating.

After going through my journals, I realized that every time I’m consistently losing weight I’ll have some sort of relapse that will send me back. After a lot of research I’ve changed my eating and I weighed in this morning at 277.2.

I’ll do the math for you, that’s 80.2 pounds down!

I’m happy that the weight is coming off, but that’s not why I’m eating this way. I’m done eating for weight loss. How can I choose sugar free pudding with hydrogenated cool whip, filled with chemicals and who knows what else over a piece of fruit? I’m eating for my MS. For fuel. To wake up in the morning and actually feel good.

Yes, I will post about the fruit intolerance issues later this week as well as more details about the eating plan.

Hopefully I’ll start to feel better moving forward. As of now, I’m just so excited to tell people I’ve lost over 80 pounds, I just want to scream it from my balcony!

But I won’t.

Goal for next week: To stop putting so much pressure on myself with these goals. Oh, and to feel better then I do this week.

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Association of fish consumption and omega 3 supplementation with quality of life, disability and disease activity in an international cohort of people with multiple sclerosis

Well, this is important. I guess I’ll be buying some organic flaxseeds (apparently ground or the oil is the best way to go) to add to my smoothies! Relapse rate reduction of over 60%? I’ll take it!

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Relapse Update

I’m still recovering from my relapse. Right now I’m on the 10th day of steroids (currently taking a half dose every day) and still slowly getting better. I’m really tired, a bit irritated, and my body is still a mixture of heavy and numb. I’ve gotten a lot better, but I’m just not where I want to be. Patience is everything.

I’m starting to recognize that I don’t do enough for myself. I push myself WAY too hard, I keep myself up all night with stress, and I eat foods that are good for weight loss, but are probably not the best for my overall health. The food part has struck a particular chord with me and I’m disappointed that I allowed myself to eat so much crap over the years. I’m talking about that genetically modified, artificial, chemically induced “crap” that tricks my brain and body to stifle my natural cravings. I (sadly) can count on my hands how many times I’ve had fruit in the last three years. Instead, I snack on sugar free pudding with hydrogenated whipped topping. I’ve been eating for the scale and it makes me sad to think that I’ve lost 75 pounds and I still feel the same as I did at my heaviest. I don’t feel well and I refuse to attribute that entirely to the MS.

After a lot of thought, I’ve decided that it’s important to revamp my entire life. I want to change a lot of things in a more natural direction and work towards a happier and healthier existence. I’m tired of wasting every day not feeling well at 25 years old. Things are about to get serious.

I’ll explain a lot more of this coming up. I want to take my blog in a whole new direction. I love that I’ve always been able to be so candid in my posts, and I certainly don’t want that to change, but I need to focus on the bigger picture instead of the day to day. Perhaps this is just what I’ve been needing all along.

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Full Body Relapse

I’m having a relapse. Not the Hugs, but a relapse nonetheless. My left side is numb, not to the point where it even bothers me anymore, but that was the initial symptom of this relapse.

The day after my first neurologist appointment, it was clear that this exacerbation was just getting started. I lost most of the muscle strength in my right (dominant) hand and my right leg. My leg lost all of it’s strength and I did fall, rolling my right ankle, but thank goodness I’m ok! Walking became difficult and typing or writing has been impossible.

After seeing the doctor a second time in one week, he recognized that I was substantially worse and decided that we would get started on injectable steroids (ACTHar for those that know) and gave me the option to do it at home rather than being admitted to the hospital. I’ll be starting the steroids this week.

Luckily it’s been a few weeks and the symptoms are starting to subside a bit. It still hasn’t been sufficient enough for the doctor to retract his original steroid prescription, but I’ll take any improvement! I don’t have a lot of pain, I’m on disability from work, and I know that things will be better soon.

Unfortunately this week was supposed to be a big week. I can no longer fly to Boston to be a bridesmaid in one of my best friend’s wedding and I’m moving! Luckily my friend understands that I wouldn’t rather be anywhere but there and my parents have been beyond incredible helping me pack and move!

Overall, my spirits are mostly high and I’m looking forward to getting through this and back to my normal routine. This is the first time in 2 weeks I’ve been able to type and this had to be written on my phone. Still, again, every little improvement counts.

No weigh ins until this is better. Right now I’m not allowed to exercise and with my hand and leg not working, it’s making it very difficult to cook.

This too shall pass.

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